Things Left
Unsent

“Dear Jesus, thank you for loving me unconditionally.

“I'm not sure what to say.. I feel empty all the time. And so many things are wrong with me. I think I love Silver to an illegal level as well, unfortunately he's fictional. He's also the reason I'm still alive and didn't die, though I did try stabbing my arm multiple times with a safety pin, it healed unfortunately. But we don't talk about that, and my mom and sister knows I'm suicidal now... and now that's gonna live on. I'll never stop though, why should I. I can't keep in touch with my friends,. My head.. do not get me started in what's going on there,.. so many intrusive & horny

“You always left me hanging. Every single fucking day. You left me, and it started in grade 4 cause of Ryan, and sometimes I hate him for it. And he did nothing. It was all you and me, that's our problem, you're too toxic, and I'm too sensitive. So I hated you and hated you for leaving me without a word or thing. Not even a letter or a warning, you just left. Like Alley Rose. Except your not a lover to me, you're just a friend who was almost family, but family doesn't leave you the way you left me. I know your family left you. I asked about yours, and you never asked about mine. So goodbye

“I hate you so much Ur a pick me U don't like me and U just lie about everything

“I don’t think I’ll ever understand why no one ever seems to fully show an interest in hanging out with me. You only want to see me at school. That’s the question I can never answer, and has taken a toll on my mental health to this very day.

“Sometimes im feeling broken 💔 but a just god alone can know weh mi a go through

“Please be kind. I know your level of dedication and i admire it but please don't pick a fight. And don't forget, someone is always rooting for you. So keep working hard and make your dreams come true.

“Ur good enough Dont shrink urself. Ur amazing Dont believe the haters If they r talking about ur back then remember.. : •they r 𝗯𝗲𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗱 u for a reason. •ur interesting enough to be talked about.

“I don't think i have the ability to carry on, its getting too much and I want to end it all. I hope i feel better soon. Thanks.

“I HATE CAMELIA! Sorry but she is just to annoying sometimes

“Dont write i can’t wait for you to kys cause i got very sad and i have wanting to kill myself for a very long time

“I always thought everyone hated me. I was always the second option with friends "the fat friend" and would constantly get bullied whenever someone would say something about my body I would go into a dark place for about a week cutting myself and not eating. Once that week stopped I went back to how I usually was but someone always had to ruin it. I thought of killing myself every single night and thinking of ways how to but I kept thinking of all the people that would miss me if I did and I would just cry myself to sleep. I always hide my emotions with being always happy but I can't anymore