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“I don’t know what u want from me. u say u love me, that you’re trying your best to be a good parent, but maybe, it’s like u say to me “you’re obviously not trying hard enough. because, it clearly doesn’t show.” I can’t tell if you scold and blame me because of ur own emotions, trauma or what, but this is how generational trauma starts. This is how the cycle continues. I really don’t know what to do. I feel like there really is no point in living now. u force everything on me, i fail an exam, u scold me like u were the best student ever. u werent. Im sorry but i hope u die. if

“I hope you are doing well... can we meet once again may be in dream? I miss you so much... please come back.. Tell me one thing, are you really happy in the heaven? Don't worry I will fulfill your every dream and keep your legacy alive.. love you vaia..

“Dear Mummy 😙 you are the bestest mother I've ever had :) IM SORRY IF I ALWAYS FAIL MY TESTS BUT JUST REMEMBER DOESN'T MEAN I FAIL ,DOESNT MEAN I HATE YOU I AM SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE YOU WHO RAISED ME 🥰

“I love you ever so much, your wonderfull,amazing and very kind I have a special present awaiting you!

“I love you, I wish you never died. I miss you and I know your looking down on me. I think about you always. Thank you for the years you could give me. <3

“Dear mom,how are you I know you are doing great but not me you left when I was a kid you left when I haven’t started to say mama or dada I didn’t breastfeed all my ages growing up I lived like I didn’t have another calling my grandma “mom” I thought that she was my mom because she’s the one who cared for me her and my sister and my dad where were all this time when I learned the truth I’m not the same again I’m not me I’m broken I wish someone could feel how I am feeling now but after all that may Gld be with you all of your whole life

“I will never forgive u for biting my nose😩

“can you pick me up from school

“Hope u get better soon Ilysm and I hope you don’t have to stay in the hospital for too long ❤️❤️

“Mom. I know I'm not good enough, I try even if it's not enough. I try to be a good daughter, even if I'm not what you want me to be. I'm trying my best. You don't know what I'm going through, because I'm not telling you. Because you don't listen to me, because I know what you're going to say to me. I'm not enough. But I will always love you, even if you may not love me. And it hurt me because I lost everyone, my father who I don't even know where he is, a good friend who is already in heaven and you don't even know it, my dog who is in heaven too. So I'm sorry if I'm not a good e

“Hi, do u know how special you are. You've helped me through hard moments and you've been there for me every step of the way. I'm so glad to call you my mum. Thank you for everything mummy xx

“We are doing greatly well and God bless our pastors and leaders, more grace . So Asides prayer Sunday, we close really late and New members tend to leave early most times even before they are been called out, also I know inviting guests costs a lot but I suggest twice In a month we invite a guest minister not necessarily music so even if we are to close late there are activities going on that people would not want to miss out on.. The last time a friend came. he said our church would really help his prayer life grow but we close late so he would go back to the new church close to his house .