Things Left
Unsent

“I'm not sure what to say.. I feel empty all the time. And so many things are wrong with me. I think I love Silver to an illegal level as well, unfortunately he's fictional. He's also the reason I'm still alive and didn't die, though I did try stabbing my arm multiple times with a safety pin, it healed unfortunately. But we don't talk about that, and my mom and sister knows I'm suicidal now... and now that's gonna live on. I'll never stop though, why should I. I can't keep in touch with my friends,. My head.. do not get me started in what's going on there,.. so many intrusive & horny

“You always left me hanging. Every single fucking day. You left me, and it started in grade 4 cause of Ryan, and sometimes I hate him for it. And he did nothing. It was all you and me, that's our problem, you're too toxic, and I'm too sensitive. So I hated you and hated you for leaving me without a word or thing. Not even a letter or a warning, you just left. Like Alley Rose. Except your not a lover to me, you're just a friend who was almost family, but family doesn't leave you the way you left me. I know your family left you. I asked about yours, and you never asked about mine. So goodbye

“I don’t think I’ll ever understand why no one ever seems to fully show an interest in hanging out with me. You only want to see me at school. That’s the question I can never answer, and has taken a toll on my mental health to this very day.

“I'm learning some stuff that I honestly can't tell the difference between, I wrote lyrics I'll never get to share with the world. I drew something inappropiate ToT . Hope all will be fine in the future

“He thought your name was Theo 😔 Your name has no letters in common with Theo 😭 Why do you not even know his name? FIND OUT! Also why do you have to be like this! You need to figure your self out!

“life is fucked up. i hate that everything moves around to quickly. i hate that everything is so pressureful i hate that i have to go to school and learn about some shit that'll only pressure us more. ...yet i still here. ... and ill continue to do so

“I'm confused between my career,love,and family

“I know you're confused, angry, tired, and lonely. But you're not alone. You have to tell people that you're struggling, or else you'll never find out that many people struggle with the same thing.

“HEY FUTURE SELF, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BUT RN I AM NOT FEELING THE BEST I JUST STARTED THIS HP CHANNEL AT ZERO FOLLWERS I HOPE I GAIN MORE! ANYWAY ILLY

“Sorry about being so aggressive to you last time.. there was just so much stress. I do have a feeling you most likely have AUDHD, CSBD, or OCD either of them.., or mabye all of them, this is you a few hours ago signing off. P.S: And you could be fictosexual or semifictosexual, anyway bye deal with it yourself i'm not helping you!

“I hope everything goes well. I hope this empty feeling soon dies out. Im scared of positive thinking but tired of always thinking negatively.When im let down, i don't feel any worse,just less dramatic. Sure there are some happy stuff here and there but you always get hit by something bad right after and is it worth it? i dont know, its exhausting. Im scared of the future, but not really, i haven't given up on it but im going to anytime soon. I don't want to die im scared of that especially when it comes suddenly too but.maybe im being lazy and selfish,ill get over it.i dont know

“why i anyways think about such useless things? those toughts make me feel tired, insane or sad, that's why i want to shut up my mind.