Things Left
Unsent

“Why can't you sitting with us anymore? It's really annoying me why you don't sit with us anymore. It's just not fair on us that you re ignoring us running away from us. And I just Don't know why you're not sitting with us. And I don't know what to do about it, cause we all feel like we've done something wrong and we all feel like we've um, like, not done enough to help you or something we, ll, just feel like you don't like us anymore and you hate us. So can you just talk to us.

“I apologise to myself. I could end what I had started and it has now gone too far. I cannot be he enjoying myself I cannot live with myself and yet I, a coward procrastinate what has to be done. I cannot be getting better. It is not an option.

“I'm sorry for making everything about me. I'm sorry I didn't help you more. I'm sorry you weren't able to come out to your family. I'm sorry for the thoughts and fantasies I had about you, even if I never told you about them. I knew you'd never like me back and I was in denial about my sexuality. I hope you're still alive.

“I'm sorry for everything. I have always looked up to you. Ever since we met I've wanted to be you, I changed myself for you, gave up what I liked for you. I loved you H, I still do. I hope you love me too, even after everything I've done.

“I dont know. You dont know either. I still remember in 2023 when i came out to you as pansexual. You told me you were lesbian. We got so close after that. You were always my sister’s best friend—not mine. But we got so close. We liked the same shows, played the same games. But maybe you noticed, maybe you didnt, we’ve grown distant. Thats not accidental. I still remember the day we started dating; you sent some stupid meme abt being single. I said “i can change that” was it a joke? I dont know. But you confessed to me. And i said i liked you too. Now i realize, im straight. I dont

“I dont even know what to say. Im sorry. I fucked up our life completely.