Things Left
Unsent

“I want to come out when I'm older. I'm not ready yet. I'm not a girl. Or a boy. It's complicated. I won't remember. The only thing I'd like us for you to not call me Maddie. Mum, one day you told me about kids changing their names. I said "I don't want to change my name, I was just curious." That was a lie. And bestie, BFF, I had a crush on you two times. I'm sorry...

“You always hated your name. You changed it, a lot. I hate change. It hurts. Like when you weren't there when I needed you most. You used to always be there. But that's my fault right? I mask it so well that you never knew. I wanted you to see how much I craved you, but I was afraid. Afraid of what, exactly? You. Being rejected. Everything. And I'm sorry. You used to be so close, and now it feels as if we live on different planets. Tí amo cosi tanto, caro mio. Mi dispiace.

“Sorry I was tired. I was up until two am trying to convince someone to stay alive. I failed again and they're gone. Suicide. I'm sorry. I tried. I failed. But I'm only fucking 12 and I've seen 15 people kill themselves. Idk how to tell you.

“i’m sorry i wasn’t with you when you needed me most

“dad, i'm sorry. i couldn't tell you... i'm not your daughter... i'm your son, axel. please just tell me that you accept me.. this is too hard for me to say.

“I am sorry. I am sorry that I was never enough.

“Im sorry u had to meet me.. I ruined your life .. I should hurry up and end my sht rn and you can forget about me.. I have planned it.. Im sorry i made you feel like sht and wanting to kys

“hey I know your not going to read this but I'm so sorry I was not there for you before you died I love you so much so so so much if I had a chance to talk to you I would be with you for everrrr I love you my pookie hope you resting in peace

“i hate myself. im going sometime soon. i will not make it to 18.

“I’m sorry for getting so mad at you. I didn’t mean any of it, I just..said it. You aren’t my least favourite person, you’re one of my favourites. I’m sorry. And maybe look forward to your birthday? Might have a gift!

“I'm really sorry i did it I love you mum I truly do but I couldn't do it anymore mum I hate it so Im done living I'm really sorry but I gotta do what I gotta do I was bullied mum really expect me to still live

“dear lucas, i never wanted our friendship to end like us acting like we were total strangers to eachother, i know that some stuff happened but it was none of our faults. i really miss you and i wish things could go back to the way it was. i really miss and love you lucas. even if we arent friends anymore.. ill still remember you either way. i hope that you are doing good now after these years… im really sorry for what happened. even if i miss you, i hope we never met again for the best for both of us.