Things Left
Unsent

“im sorry i wasent enough for u im sorry i was a bad kid and a bad siibling to my sibling im sorry i was a cheater and so much more and im sorry ur not here rn i jist miss u so much

“my parents are shouting at me all the time and im stressing out this is the 3rd letter i've written on here but ive written many more on paper at home to all my friends and family(except my parents)saying how none of this was their fault and they shouldnt take this out on themselves. but i also have the one to do that talks to my crush and im not sure how it do it as should i say i like them and if it's successful then its ok but what if i survive? so i havent written that one yet but i havent written the one to me. i have nothing to appologise to me about i hate myself.

“I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was so mean. I wish I would've been better. It keeps me awake at night. I hate that I was so mean to you, even though you were struggling so hard. I wonder, do I still cross your mind? Do you still think of me? If I ever see you again, I'm telling you sorry. You'd probably beat me up, punch me in the gut. But just hear me out. I'm sorry I said all of that.

“Dear me i owe you an apology, please forgive me for the mistakes that I’ve made in the past 2,3 years i know i’ve been wrong that’s why I’m asking you to forgive me please

“I’m sorry I really am I just never respond truthfully on the spot. I wish I got your number, I wish that I could speak to you without being judged. So I apologise that I made you look stupid in front of all you friends. Also can u pls ask P to Shut the fuck up and back off like why does he give a shit!?

“I want to come out when I'm older. I'm not ready yet. I'm not a girl. Or a boy. It's complicated. I won't remember. The only thing I'd like us for you to not call me Maddie. Mum, one day you told me about kids changing their names. I said "I don't want to change my name, I was just curious." That was a lie. And bestie, BFF, I had a crush on you two times. I'm sorry...

“You always hated your name. You changed it, a lot. I hate change. It hurts. Like when you weren't there when I needed you most. You used to always be there. But that's my fault right? I mask it so well that you never knew. I wanted you to see how much I craved you, but I was afraid. Afraid of what, exactly? You. Being rejected. Everything. And I'm sorry. You used to be so close, and now it feels as if we live on different planets. Tí amo cosi tanto, caro mio. Mi dispiace.

“Sorry I was tired. I was up until two am trying to convince someone to stay alive. I failed again and they're gone. Suicide. I'm sorry. I tried. I failed. But I'm only fucking 12 and I've seen 15 people kill themselves. Idk how to tell you.

“i’m sorry i wasn’t with you when you needed me most

“dad, i'm sorry. i couldn't tell you... i'm not your daughter... i'm your son, axel. please just tell me that you accept me.. this is too hard for me to say.

“I am sorry. I am sorry that I was never enough.

“Im sorry u had to meet me.. I ruined your life .. I should hurry up and end my sht rn and you can forget about me.. I have planned it.. Im sorry i made you feel like sht and wanting to kys